When you look into the eyes of somebody whom you think cares for you and smile and tell the person what you honestly feel, at the same time revealing the true inner you, that somebody will leave you. It is just a matter of time.
When you make that person whom you think cares for you important in your life, cherishing that person's every bit, only to realize that you are the last one he or she cares (which also means he or she cares the least for you), you know deep down inside that that somebody will leave you. It is just a matter of time.
When you risk everything for somebody whom you think cares for you, and hope that that somebody will turn to you and say "thank you" and truly appreciate you from the inside, you know that that somebody will soon leave you. It is just a matter of time.
When you splurge your finance on that somebody whom you think cares for you, and hope that that somebody would reciprocate just in the simplest manner, and truly care for you for who you are and love you for you, you know that deep down inside that that somebody will leave you. It is just a matter of time.
When you want to tell somebody what hurts the most, what beats on your chest every minute, what drains you of your energy, and you see that person enjoying himself or herself with others, you lose energy to utter those words and you break down - alone - knowing that that somebody will never notice the tears you've cried. That's when you know, deep down inside, that that somebody will leave you. It is just a matter of time.
When everything inside is everything you hate, and you cry out for a chance to withdraw your mistake; and when you hope that the person whom you think cares for you could be there for you, by your side, to stand by you; you suddenly realize that this life, this journey, this walk is meant to be a walk of loneliness - not a walk to remember. Then, you will finally admit that life is meant for solitude, and the person whom you think cares for you will eventually leave you and bid you goodbye (perhaps even without your knowledge).
Everything is just a matter of time.
Life is for the living, not the dead.
Bernardo - Entangled, the Musical
Bernardo - Entangled, the Musical
But...
Life is for loneliness, not togetherness
Because you cannot expect to have somebody
You cherish, you care, you love
To stand by you
When you need that person
That is life, the synonym of solitude
And rejection.
Perhaps life is for the dead, not the living.
Perhaps we only find meaning in death and not life.
Perhaps we only find meaning in death and not life.
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When facing death, we question how we really have live.
As I have faced before how to be rejected, I survived by a good friend who left me this poem.
People are often unreasonable,
illogical and self-centered;
Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind,
People may accuse you
of selfish, ulterior motives;
Be Kind anyway.
If you are successful,
you will win some false friends and
some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and frank,
people may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.
What you spend years building,
someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway
If you find serenity and happiness,
they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.
The good you do today,
people will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have,
and it may never be enough;
Give the world the best you've got anyway.
You see, in the final analysis.
it is between you and God;
It is never between you and them anyway.
For me, I have been living a lonely life. When your the only child it gets to you. Yes I find it hard to have someone who is willing to listen to about my problems.
As I got older, I became more and more dependent on friends, but then, when I hit college it was much more worse. Not only I was shun away, I couldn't believe I was no longer look at in school. Even though they don't show it, they have mentally rejected me.
Thankfully I had two people who constantly check up on me. Both became my CG leaders.
I believe that their timing was really God's timing as I was hitting my lowest point of life.
I believe rejection will play a big part in our lives. Sooner or later we will be rejected from the dumbest reasons to our faith. But in times like these, when all is gone. I think look to God. And perhaps just dwell on some verses. Yen has a good knowledge on certain verses to look for when in times of like this.
Look around you, you have some great friends. Paul's a good friend when you need a talk sometimes. I'm willing to listen also. But yeah, like always disappointment will always be a part of our life.
Is how we deal with it and how we overcome it and from there witness to others. Too often have we forgotten that we are supposed to talk to God about our problems(myself included).
RAISE UP JON CHU! Know that when actions don't go showed for know that God did. Well that's all I will share. Hope this will helps. Cheers
Matthew 11:25-30
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.
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