You should think positively no matter what happens in life. All things happen for a reason, and each reason will build you - it is only how you view it. You can either break or make yourself. Which would you prefer: break or make? Positive or negative?
Credibility, people, credibility. So what if you have walked a path of stormy seas and raging thunders? (see the switched adjectives and nouns?) So what if you have experience trials and tribulations, and ended up seeing the light? Have you the credibility to speak to one who has walked a different path? Have you understood the meaning of fending everything that comes your way alone? Have you understood the fear of dependence-and-losing? You speak freely, but have you the credibility in speaking to a wretched soul?
They say
Look up to God. He has always been there and will always be there for you.
Pain, people, pain. Fear. Tiredness. Loneliness.
You say positive mental attitude? I say insanity.
They say
Never turn from admitting you love someone.
But what if your loving someone will cause you to lose that someone? What if you mere saying of I-love-you will cause you everything you've been holding on? What if you have come a long way from pushing your bloody knees and arms from the rocky ground, and you've finally found a branch to hold on, only to realize that with that mere action of admittance will cause you to slip and fall - lower and faster?
What if everything you've believed in contradicts you, and the your inner voice screams so much, but you know you cannot utter a word? Do you still say it?
You suppress the words - each and every one of them to the last syllable. So that just in case you lose yourself, just in case you lose your control over your soon-to-overflow emotions, just in case you break down, just in case you lose your sanity, you can still hold on to what you are holding on to.
They say
View life happily. Enjoy life. All will come well.
View life dully, and all crumples.
It's just the matter of viewing life.
If one could be sober enough and persistent enough and honest enough, one would know that viewing life happily is not possible because you are stuck with yourself. Face it.
You try to run. You try to escape. Where can you go? Perhaps the furthest is the success of fooling yourself for a period of time? After that, what do you do?
You strive. You thrive. You pursue.
But you die. You lose your smile.
And all you can do is smile while it hurts inside.
They say
Open your eyes. There are always people who care for you.
But you know that if truth be told, if our inner secrets are voiced, if who we are is displayed before the masses, where will those supposedly caring people be? Won't they - like every typical nominal human - scatter away?
You want somebody to carry you and love you despite all your weaknesses and pasts and fears and desires and painful wishes and sin?
Be realistic.
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