Given Up

Where have you been?
I have tried reaching you.
You were nowhere to be found.
It seems as though you were in a far away land -
nowhere near me, nowhere within reach.

Where have you been?
I have tried calling you.
You were nowhere to be found.
It seems as though you were unreachable

Where have you been?
I have tried loving you
I can't.

I haven't learn how to open myself
To love you
Again
Because of the hurts you have scarred on my hands

I yearn to look into your eyes
And smile and feel your breath tingle in my ears
As I hold you close to me
But I resent it now

What hurts the most?
Is to know you smile with another
What tears me the most?
Is to know that we can't be as we were

I have given up